Yesterday night, I couldn't sleep well. Was worrying a lot about what's going to happen to me. After getting up, I logged on to MonsterIndia.com, created a profile for me there and submitted for a couple of job applications. Side by side, I've also started checking out options for getting Sugar Daddies. If I'm in a mood later on in the day, I'll probably look up jobs in music stores, radio stations, music channels etc. You can keep on giving suggestions so that I can at least have food and internet - I need to have internet to maintain contact with Vinokur.
Since I'm feeling slightly better after a couple of 'Dads' responded to my messages on a personals site, I'll bother to post in the song that I recorded yesterday. It's the second in line of at least four that I'm going to send in for the competition. It's called 'Hope It's Over'. I had posted a shabby acoustic version earlier. It's a full fledged electric version. Once again, I would put in a disclaimer - Don't worry too much about the vocal track. It needs some work. But I don't have better mics and saner mind to do it now. Lyrics are attached below. In a weird way, this song kinda sums up my present state of mind as well.
Hope It's Over
Hope It's Over (lyrics)
When did I stop being, what I used to be
Where did I start falling, you weren't looking
What did I start chasing, it feels so long
Whom did I leave stranded, I fell so hard, I felt so low
Was it you, was it me, who knows
When did I stop listening, it was deafening
Where did I stop looking, what lies ahead
What did I start wishing, wish I'd be there now
Whom did I try faking, I tried so hard, I felt so lone
Was it you, was it me, who knows
Was it you, was it me, who knows
The hope that is left, is it too heavy to confess
The hope that is left, it's so easy to forget
Was it you, was it me, who knows
Was it you, was it me, is it over?
Is it over? Yes it is.
(PS: This was originally written after a phone conversation with my sister which I've blogged about. She is a silent reader on this blog. When we talked yesterday, she said she liked the 'words' of the Rainbow Song, but not the tune. I hope she likes the tune of this at least.)
41 comments:
Your sister is not going to let you starve, or whore yourself out to old dudes. ( thanks God!)
-dh
@ DH: Why would you think that? She can't decide what I want to do with life. Whoring out to older dudes is fun for me!
@ DH:
(PS: You didn't notice a song in the post or what?)
i don't know why I said what i said, it just felt like a act three before the climax kind of nod to the sister character, like in a good sally field movie. You know, like she's going to march up the stairs to your pig sty of an apartment rolling up her blouse,
wrapping her sari tightly around herself the way she does when you know she means business, and her business is to rescue her brother ( which i hope she does, you my dear are in need of an intervention, i hope they come after you with the works, chlorofoam, ropes, good old fashioned brain washing stuff, if you don't get your life together at least you have more to rebel against, if you were my brother i'd get you the hell out of there)
if whoring is fun, then say that, don't make start the post with life sucks, start it with " MAN LIFE is great!" I get to lay underneath Varghese Uncle from Trivandrum, you know the one that's slowly losing his marbles, Oh lucky me!
Yes, i noticed the song, this one's about sis right? its an old one. what of it?
-dh
@ Duncan: Well, whatever you say or do honey, I will still do what I'm doing right now because this is what I want to do. Jus hoping that I could get some money till my crisis is solved.
The song is re-recorded. That's why I posted it!
Wow this song is awesome dude.. :P
and don't worry much. :D You will get good job soon. all the best.
@ BloggingKnight: Thank you!
I hope so too!
I likes. Nice
Officially you have declared we are competitiors (cf: you are looking for sugardaddies) hahahaha....
I tell my bf all the time, you know what...we both should start looking for a sugardaddy (the irony is we both can be a sugardaddy ourself, in fact!)
Ahem, is it me or did Prash just send out feelers? ;)
@ Prash: Seriously? Strangely, that's quite a contradiction.
(Why isn't anyone discussing the song?)
@ Anonymous: First of all, are you Duncan? DelHiBOi? Or truly, anonymous?
I swear, I didn't make that out when I read the comment!
I didn't say anything about your song because I have trouble with my computer...no sound and no video...
Truly anonymous. I think Prash is trying to make contact. :B
I think the song needs some more work, especially the rhythm.
@ Prash: Okay.
@Truly Anonymous: Rhythm? What exactly did you mean?
Please excuse me if I have used the wrong word, but I am not a musician. I meant there should be some repetitive chords that tie the song together, something hummable.
@ Anonymous: There are actually very repetitive, monotonous chord patterns. This was too 'simple' for a friend!
You said it - it borders on being monotonous.
I liked it. I dont mind listening to it again. time stamp 2.56 to 2.59 - major bay-sur problems though.
Totally unrelated to this post...was trying out the meme qn. generator and this qn. came off it with yours and Aparna's name :)
Aparna and Kris are forced to roleplay out a verbal couple fight. Who gets to play the wife? :)
Don't worry too much...Lemme tell you the phrases I hear! Wow! my turn :D Things will be better. Just a matter of time :D
Btw, did you make any changes since you sent the song to me? Or may be I have heard it enough times to make it sound good now :D I think most of us will relate to this song at some time or the other.
the song is better but you need to add a chorus that sounds more like a chorus, it sounds like all song and no chorus --dh
all song and no chorus is not good, remember the group "Visiting Hours" from the Soprano's ? tv show.
they had all these depressing songs without chorus's and they got killed....DH
@ Anonymous 1: Okay. Point taken.
@ Anonymous 2: Bay-Sur? That's vibrato! LOL
@ MyHeadTrip: We'll make a big catfight about who gets to be the wife!
Thank you for the words! I'm feeling better anyway!
I did make slight changes! But nothing that you mentioned earlier.
@ Duncan Hines: Well... the "Was it You, Was it me" is the chorus!
@ Anonymous 1: Okay. Point taken.
@ Anonymous 2: Bay-Sur? That's vibrato! LOL
@ MyHeadTrip: We'll make a big catfight about who gets to be the wife!
Thank you for the words! I'm feeling better anyway!
I did make slight changes! But nothing that you mentioned earlier.
@ Duncan Hines: Well... the "Was it You, Was it me" is the chorus!
"@ Anonymous 2: Bay-Sur? That's vibrato! LOL"
all I am saying is that it sounded like it has pitch issues. Take it for what its worth. I am sure Randy Jackson would agree though LOL...
@ LOLz at Randy Jackson! Don't ever think that I'm a vocalist. I need a lot of training before I can be one!
Just listening to the song now, like it very much...I am actually getting used to your voice and your music and will soon become your fan ! Beware ! I will be stalking you after that ...;-) LOL
Post ur resume on Naukri as well..
I can’t hear the song but beautiful-soulful-heartfelt lyrics Kris!
I myself am out of work..beyond a point, placement agencies and job portals don’t help..even I don’t know wht to do
Just a suggestion to ur previous post:
Y don’t u join a call center for the time being. (If it’s so urgent)..join MINDSPACE…(max 20 mins frm ur house)..
JP Morgan, 3G, Intelenet, Sutherland..IBM Daksh, E-Funds, EDS, ICICI One source.. all of them pay amazingly well..i can assure u of 20k at least! but u need to adapt to rotational shifts.. night shift being mandatory! And transport is not an issue..they pick n drop!
But considering ur creative writing skills, it’s a waste to join a cc..but if u desperately need money, its not a bad option..work for 2-3 months, secure ur salary n quit..who cares!
Nice lyrics. I hope everything becomes fine for you soon. Sad to know about u not eating and all to save money :(
@ Swats: Wow, that was an exhaustive comment. Thanks a lot my dear. You are a good friend when in need.
@ Reema: Thank you. Hope you could hear the song as well. The reality sucks.
good tune as well as lyrics!!
@ Venkatesh: Thank you! (Are you my sister? LOL)
was it you was it me isn't a chorus/ sorry
it sounds like more of the verse, people need some thing they can walk away with, sing.
really, trust me, it's not the chorus. -dh
was it you was it me isn't a chorus/ sorry
it sounds like more of the verse, people need some thing they can walk away with, sing.
really, trust me, it's not the chorus. -dh
@ Duncan: I love it. And since I wrote it, I still claim that it's the chorus.
okay you win, it's just my opinion. It is your song.
on a scale of 1 to 10, I'd give it a 7 so it's not that far of, that should put my crit in the right perspective.
: )
-dh
Ok. All the gay boy flirting stuff aside, You do have a good voice. There is something very compelling in it. For what it's worth, I liked this song.
My advice would be just follow your instincts.
Yikes! I just saw your previous post about poverty. Ask your Vinokur friend to help you out, for heavens sake.
I am sending you an email. Please look at it.
A Well Wisher in NYC
@ Duncan: You know, I really think those lyrics are very endearing to me. I don't want to tamper them. Thanks for your comments.
@ Handmaiden: Thank you! I'm following my instincts. But I'm falling because of that.
@ AWWiNYC: I will. :)
technically speaking I still havent thought about or changed my sex... So i cant be your sister...
@ Venkatesh: Haha! My sister can be a man as well!
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