- BF’s health
- The relationship, and how my depression is ruining it
- About the next meeting with the BF and what will happen
- About all communications with him, wondering when the next argument/fight will start
- Wanting a bigger backpack to carry things around, but not wanting to disappoint him by not using the bag he bought me.
- Because of the bag situation, packing for staying over at his place, what not to miss.
- Forgetting things in different bags
- The perennial fear of losing/misplacing things while in transit
- Running out of money, long term and short term
- Getting change for 1000 rupee notes, which is what my new bank’s ATM is giving me
- Not finding the new bank’s ATMs
- How to start investing/saving
- How to sort through the company-provided health insurance papers, while realizing that the closest person in my life won’t benefit from it, thanks to Indian law
- Reading articles “positive thinking” and similar self-help articles and wondering why I can’t do any of what they say
- Feeling of being unable to finish any task apart from work (e.g., read a book, learn something, watch a movie)
- About making errors at work and causing client complaints
- About how soon I’ll leave work and when I’ll reach the place I have to get to
- About getting late for things (BF’s apartment, appointments, errands)
- Income tax return filing
- Wanting to exercise (walk/cycle) but not being unable to
- Wanting to wake up early and do something productive, but being unable to
- About how to manage watching live sports and spending time with the BF
- About medications - how to get them (pharmacy is always out of stock) and when I’ll run out of them
- About what I’ll eat in my next meal
- Running errands in general
- Communication with friends
- Impending social outings with friends
- Losing friends because of my antisocial nature
- About making friends and loved ones worry about me
- About the vast amount of things to learn but having little time for it
- Everyday commute in the rains
- Increased travel expenditure, especially suburban rail passes
- Grocery shopping - the experience and how to not forget things
Worry list for today
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4 comments:
I sympathize! And people wonder why some of us can't sleep. If only we could install 'off' buttons on our feverishly whirling personal hardrives.
I'm so glad I have friends like you, Randall! :) We are the support system for each other. Thanks to you and so many others. xoxoxo
Don't forget you are not alone in your struggle, kiddo!
Well aware of it, Randy. :-)
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