Someone told me a few months back - 'kris, you should not put out sensitive, self-damaging things on your blog.' I followed that advice. The result - i'm more fucked than ever and I don't write honestly on the blog anymore. I think I should just go back to the way I was - whining, bitching, and being an attention whore. At least I feel better that way.
So, here's my first attempt at redemption - confession.
I have fucked my life up. I'm fucked up and I honeslty feel like a fucking fool. I don't have any confidence left in me and I am a wreck. Every fucking day of my life is the biggest pain. My life if full of things to avoid. I don't want to meet people and be happy because I get hurt by others' happiness and joy because I can't have something similar. Yes, I'm jealous. And I'm losing hair. And I am drowning in debt.
That's me. I'm sorry people but I'm the biggest fuck-up ever!
"An honest confessional, with a sprinkle of humor and opinion, of an academician/musician seeking happiness" Find me now on https://enagyginglife.wordpress.com
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7 comments:
at least your honest.........
and who on earth did'nt feel the way u are right know ..ever1 does.......
Honesty is something that I'm good at.
then continue being honest!
Peter
I wish the best for you
Take care, Kris
@ Peter: I will.
@ Swats: Thanks!
Yes, it's high time you went back to square one... And the blog's a good place to start... Pour your heart out!
Unsung: I am going to be using it in the way I always should have been. :)
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