Dec 1, 2009

The biggest fuck-up ever

Someone told me a few months back - 'kris, you should not put out sensitive, self-damaging things on your blog.' I followed that advice. The result - i'm more fucked than ever and I don't write honestly on the blog anymore. I think I should just go back to the way I was - whining, bitching, and being an attention whore. At least I feel better that way.

So, here's my first attempt at redemption - confession.

I have fucked my life up. I'm fucked up and I honeslty feel like a fucking fool. I don't have any confidence left in me and I am a wreck. Every fucking day of my life is the biggest pain. My life if full of things to avoid. I don't want to meet people and be happy because I get hurt by others' happiness and joy because I can't have something similar. Yes, I'm jealous. And I'm losing hair. And I am drowning in debt.

That's me. I'm sorry people but I'm the biggest fuck-up ever!

7 comments:

santiago rebello said...

at least your honest.........
and who on earth did'nt feel the way u are right know ..ever1 does.......

Kris Bass said...

Honesty is something that I'm good at.

Anonymous said...

then continue being honest!

Peter

Swats said...

I wish the best for you
Take care, Kris

Kris Bass said...

@ Peter: I will.

@ Swats: Thanks!

unsungpsalm said...

Yes, it's high time you went back to square one... And the blog's a good place to start... Pour your heart out!

Kris Bass said...

Unsung: I am going to be using it in the way I always should have been. :)